ROCK ON!!!

Yes, I feel good nana nanana na....wow

Yes, I am thoroughly surprised at how I felt after working out last night. I felt like my old self 15lbs lighter...ok need to be 15+lbs lighter again but that is another story at the moment.

After nearly two weeks of feeling like crap or worse, after I worked out yesterday at the gym, I felt energized beyond words.

The weird part - I didn't do anything differently at the gym. ????? :/ seriously.

The only thing I can figure is my foods now.

So, in order to conquer the big mountain I have to conquer me in order to be fit as a fiddle to take on the big one - so that means figuring out what foods I can and can't have period. This is nothing "dieting" related either, a serious change in foods again. Fish and veggies (mainly veggies) seem to be what my body wants, with the occasional meat protein, then some fruits and non-fat dairies on occasion. So guess I need to pay attention even more so now.

I have a family history that suffers from digestive tract disorders and as I age I am seeing and experiencing more and more of it. I am finding that I need to limit myself to a level that I never needed to before. The adventure in this is not a fun one, it is one wrapped in weight changes, tummy discomforts, bodily discomforts as a whole, and just plain feeling miserable not only in my body but about myself on top of it, so it actually affect my overall mood too. Well, why wouldn't it, I feel uncomfy, so of course then I become less than perky - that is a given, but it does weigh into more of my self-esteem than it should.

I have always had self-esteem issues, no matter how successful I was at something, I never felt good enough, or successful enough in my ventures in life. A story that most everyone has in life, I am not special that way at all. I am better but those old triggers still seem to poke at me, when they shouldn't. I am not a child anymore and history is history, but it is how I came to be who I am, so of course they are lurking in the woodwork as it were.

This is why it is important to me to succeed in this venture.

I have a mountain to conquer...both inside and out, and based on yesterday, I might have a good start after all. Hmmmmm.... got to have bumps in the road making the destination a true success story. Makes ya want it all the more that way if you get over those bumps and it become closer to being the success story.