Today is a day where I am feeling troubled ... inside.
I am having a deep feeling of loss and of being lost in a sea of whirling waters.
Invisible and swallowed up at the same time.
Today, I am highly affected being brought to tears negatively by stranded/abandoned animals in a shelter and again to tears by the shear beauty of a gorgeous horse and its gentle trainer and the love that they have for one another.
Today, I am feeling a deep sense of not being afraid to die but yet not wanting to die because I would miss out on the beauty that is this world, even with the true horrors that are out there too. I don't wear rose colored glasses, but the affect it has on me to see the "reality" of some things would kill me, this I know so unfortunately I have to opt out of looking at that aspect of reality to a certain degree.
Today, I want to hide, yet if I do, the fear of being forgotten overwhelms me.
Fear is truly the only thing to be afraid of yet, that isn't truly accurate either.
Today, I am not sure what is up inside me, so goes another day to start again.
So, I hope to....
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