Curve Balls?

Wow, it sure seems like the only time I post is when life is kicking me.
Well, here I am again...so I am trying to get that boot off my ass and flip the boot wearer outta my life.
I am tired.  I am fed up.  I am just over some aspects of life currently, but can I do a fucking thing about it...? Sure I can but will I do the only thing I can do?
What I am going to do is ride it out cause what I have invested is my heart, HOWEVER, I am realistic to the price tags that come with the investment.  If the price is too high then we shall see if it is worth it, but right now I have to admit putting up with shit that I normally wouldn't because of my "faith" in what life brought me to start with and what I feel in my heart is the path but this fucked up road is for the birds in trying to get there.
fortunately I do feel the love in return....
the trust has to get stronger again....
Enough said for now, for I have life to press on with and forward into...