Craziness?

The weekend was gorgeous and full beyond what I thought it would be.

More house demolition for some remodel stuff happened, but after some new tattoo color, a motorcycle ride and then opting to stay home for the night since....I was in pain from the aloe gel that got put on the new tattoo work that burned beyond anything I have felt in ages, after showering to rinse it off and exhausted from the pain made for a snuggles and "try" to sleep night.

Then, getting up at "oh ick thirty" in the morning to watch a specific World Cup game was both good and bad.  Making a drive to the airport, then back right after the game.  Stopping to collect more paint chips and another errand stop while contending with a tender back, caused me to fall asleep on the couch instead of going outside to enjoy the sun.  But then I had to create a music set, get it sent off, handle some house stuff, and go teach dance, come back to finish some house stuff, start taking the doc appt prep stuff, just made the weekend fly by so there was no hike for me or new photographs to share from the sunny weekend.

Gads, then I wonder why I am tired...guess that summed it up for this last weekend. Sheesh.

Tests: Pass or Fail?

I go to the gym, I try to hike as much as the weather will allow, which isn't much this year, I am sketchy at best on some of the foods I am taking in, and I am now in constant discomfort not only with my weight currently, but with pains that have come up now on a daily basis.  I am never pain free, I am pain reduced but I am always in pain.

I am finding this is making it difficult to maintain any kind of positive outlook or attitude to push myself even harder with working out and such.  When I workout/hike etc that causes a different "positive" pain (the "no pain no gain" thingy) in conjunction with the unwanted pains.  So, I am torn in regards to how much pain I can deal with daily. 

With these pains, my weight has not reduced it has increased over the last 10 months by 10-12 pounds, a total gain in two years of 18-20 pounds of the 60-65 I pushed hard to lose.  So, I get down on myself over this, but then I wonder if the pains I have are the cause of the gain, so is this partially a medical reason?

Well, I finally hit the wall with dealing with these pains and started down the road with the doctors. 

I don't know what the outcome is going to be all in all, but we have found out that I do have some things going on that we caught.  Nothing that was life threatening but always if left unattended it could become so...but I am not in a life threatening situation currently.  I just have pains and discomforts that are undetermined at this point and those things "found" normally are not a cause for pain, hence a bit of confusion and concern as to what is causing the pains.  Are you dizzy yet?

I am and I am writing it... ;)

So, I just completed my fifth doctor's visit in less than a month and I have three more to go at this point.  Let's hope that we can figure this out quickly and non-surgically, or at least non-envasive.

There is the latest and greatest update....

I am still going to the gym regardless of the pain, and this weekend should be nice so I am going to get a day hike in at some point!!!!!!!!  I need it.

Camera at the ready too. :)